Saturday, October 18, 2014

Finding out

Documenting the adventures of my future  growing family has always been the reason behind the start of Mrs Brown and Company Blog. Those with fibromyalgia can relate, memory ain't too hot anymore. And I really didn't have a great "rememberer" before the fibro.

I hope to keep my blog current with my pregnancy journey and all things baby when my sweet Baby B arrives. I'd love for you to follow along! 

The day I found out I would soon be a mommy!  

I had my suspicions. I mean, I've never been pregnant so I really didn't know but.. something was different. I mentioned it to Tanner and he is very open minded and calm natured. He said I should wait a week or so then test. I kind of thought that was a good idea. But since I have always wanted to surprise him with being pregnant, I stopped talking about any of the early symptoms. Sneaky, I know. 

So without talking about it and kind of putting it out of my mind for a few days, I really didn't think about it much. Some may think that's crazy.. and looking back now it may be! But I would occasionally pat my belly and pray for the baby that could be inside there.

I had a birthing class (in the hospital I will deliver in) for my doula training after work one afternoon and I thought it was a perfect opportunity to pick up a test. So, I go to Walgreens and did the most awkward thing I have ever done. Buying a pregnancy test is so much more embarrassing than buying tampons. I have no idea why I was embarrassed. I felt everyone was staring at me and giving me a "oh!" look. Big eyes and a slight smile. I wanted out of there. I purchased 2 boxes of Clearblue pregnancy tests, deodorant (because I was sweating like a fool at Walgreens), a note pad for my birthing class and chocolate bar. What? I'm pregnant! ;)



I stuck my tests in my lunch box (didn't want Tanner to look in my purse) and ate my chocolate bar on the way to class. 


The birthing class teacher was a sweetie. She had us introduce ourselves and each lady announced her name and how many weeks pregnant she was. It was my turn and I quickly spit out "I'm Whitney! And I'm not pregnant..." Because I wasn't! Or maybe I was but didn't know forsure yet. And if I was pregnant, I wasn't telling them first! 

That was the very moment that it hit me. And  I almost cried. In that very moment I realized that I very well could be pregnant. The entire class I was thinking of how I really could have a baby in my belly. Because, I promise, I thought about it every morning and kind of wondered. I bought the tests and thought I could be. But it wasn't real to me until I declared I wasn't pregnant. 

Tanner met me in Owensboro and we went to our churches life groups that night. I didn't say a word! It was so hard not to talk to Tanner about my crazy afternoon, I tell him most everything! 

I brought the lunch box in the house and put it in a safe place I knew Tanner wouldn't look. The next morning I pulled the box out and took it to the bathroom with me. Knowing it could take a 3 minutes for it to give a result, I set a timer and tried not to look. But 10 seconds in this happened. 


Then I did the "oh!" look. For like ever. Then this happened. 


2-3 means 4-5 weeks pregnant. I almost died! I was 5 weeks and 2 days pregnant! I used 3 of the 4 tests because I thought Tanner may want to see one in action. All of them were positive and all them gave results in less than 15 seconds. 

I started thinking of ways I could tell Tanner. I took a picture with this Adopt Shoppe necklace I didn't even remember ordering but received it in the mail. I thought I may send it to him in a text but quickly decided I wanted to be with him when he heard the news. 

I was so shocked and excited and nervous and scared and happy and emotional. I had no words. I just remember busting out laughing several times on the way to work. Then I'd wipe a tear or two when I thought how special this was. I couldn't believe it. And I couldn't wait to tell my hubby about our growing family! <3



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